Okay, I know there are worse things than being stuck in a tropical paradise staying in a four-star resort eating free food and drinking free cocktails. But this is Free to Kvetch and I know if you've read many of my older posts you'll find that I can complain about anything. So here goes.
It's hot, it's humid and I'm not a person that is comfortable in relaxing situations. A couple years ago someone suggested that I use a relaxation CD that helps reduce stress and calm my nerves. I gave it a try and ten minutes into listening I got a nose bleed. Thankfully the nose bleed stressed me out enough to return me to my normally stressed-out self and I was able to get through the situation but I threw the CD away. I can not sit on a chaise lounger next to the pool and relax. It is one of the most uncomfortable situations I can imagine. I hate short pants and only wear tee-shirts as an outer garment when I'm mowing the yard or working outside in the yard. I don't even like to wear jeans.
This has lead to many strange experiences in my life. When I try to dress-down and look relaxed I'm told that I look very uncomfortable and like I'm trying to force myself to relax. Is something wrong with me? Right now I'm sitting on the balcony looking down at a gathering of people relaxing around the pool, laughing and having a good time. The thought of joining them makes me very uneasy. I don't really think it is a psychological disorder like Social Anxiety or General Anxiety Disorder (which I'm sure I have and that just makes me anxious thinking about it). I just don't think I ever learned to relax. On the farm if you had time to relax and lounge around it meant important work wasn't being done. Only rich, lazy people relaxed.
So now I don't live on the farm I have lots of free time and what do I do? Now don't get me wrong, I do not like to work all of the time, as a matter of fact I hate to work. But it's almost like I'm ashamed of myself relaxing in public. I'll lounge around the house and watch TV all day or surf the web reading blogs and webcomics, but I do that in the privacy of my own home where others can't see me.
Maybe their should be relaxation classes that you could take and learn the right way to relax 'cause I don't think I'm doing it right when I try it on my own.
It's hot, it's humid and I'm not a person that is comfortable in relaxing situations. A couple years ago someone suggested that I use a relaxation CD that helps reduce stress and calm my nerves. I gave it a try and ten minutes into listening I got a nose bleed. Thankfully the nose bleed stressed me out enough to return me to my normally stressed-out self and I was able to get through the situation but I threw the CD away. I can not sit on a chaise lounger next to the pool and relax. It is one of the most uncomfortable situations I can imagine. I hate short pants and only wear tee-shirts as an outer garment when I'm mowing the yard or working outside in the yard. I don't even like to wear jeans.
This has lead to many strange experiences in my life. When I try to dress-down and look relaxed I'm told that I look very uncomfortable and like I'm trying to force myself to relax. Is something wrong with me? Right now I'm sitting on the balcony looking down at a gathering of people relaxing around the pool, laughing and having a good time. The thought of joining them makes me very uneasy. I don't really think it is a psychological disorder like Social Anxiety or General Anxiety Disorder (which I'm sure I have and that just makes me anxious thinking about it). I just don't think I ever learned to relax. On the farm if you had time to relax and lounge around it meant important work wasn't being done. Only rich, lazy people relaxed.
So now I don't live on the farm I have lots of free time and what do I do? Now don't get me wrong, I do not like to work all of the time, as a matter of fact I hate to work. But it's almost like I'm ashamed of myself relaxing in public. I'll lounge around the house and watch TV all day or surf the web reading blogs and webcomics, but I do that in the privacy of my own home where others can't see me.
Maybe their should be relaxation classes that you could take and learn the right way to relax 'cause I don't think I'm doing it right when I try it on my own.
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